Hi.

I'm in a really nostalgic mood all of a sudden...which is probably due to the weed I'm currently smoking. Anyways.

I don't know why I've been thinking about my high school friends and how distant I feel from them as of late. When I think back, I remember that there were some friends who were sometimes really good to me and seemed to really like me--and at the same time I remember the feeling of how 'not cool' I was to them. (I must say it's a very confusing thought.)

I don't think I ever told my friends when I did feel wanted and loved. Was that a reason why they sort of drifted away? Who says that to friends? I would feel hella-gay if I actually said that to a friend, and I'm sure the friend on the receiving end (heh) would feel the exact same way...right?

I have given an effort and tried to get together with the people I've drifted away from, but I never really saw a return on that. I also feel intimidated when I'm trying to contact them. I dunno.

Oh, and I hope you're reading this, Claire: I might not be up when you phone. As you can see, this was written pretty late. I'm sure you can put 2 and 2 together.